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Writer’s block?
I’m terribly terribly bored right now. I seem to have forgotten how to blog. And I seem to have forgotten how to write. I don’t remember the last time I wrote anything substantial.
And I’m thinking of terrible things! And sort of being haunted for it. But I’m young… I should be allowed to do stupid things when I’m young.
And when I’m older, I can do all the proper things I’ve wanted to do, get a proper job and a family and rubbish like that.
I feel extremely emotional right now… not in the sense that I’m very upset and going to burst into tears at any moment, but there’s a stream of feelings I can just feel streaming through me, it’s very queer and hard to explain, since I’ve only felt this way very few times before… hmm.
Maybe it’s all the different thoughts I have going through my head now, all of which are pretty thought-provoking, so there’s all his mind quacker buzzing around and I can’t think properly. It’s like I’m on the verge of a trip or something, hahaha.
I think what I feel is excitement. It’s that excitement of a new prospect, a new idea and this hopeful future I’m picturing somehow - strange because it definitely doesn’t look like anything is about to change. Probably because I do have this idea but the other side of my conscience, the ~pragmatic and realistic~ side, is suppressing the immoral, spontaneous thoughts I’m having. The old wise guy would say this is a good thing. Ah, well… too bad he’s probably right.
I feel the feeling going down now. Down to my stomach until I feel queasy and eventually I’ll lie down and everything will be fine. Everything will be okay.
Bought a couple of new fish today :) something to pride myself in for the next few weeks maybe. Wait, no, I’m supposed to pride myself in my academics for the next few weeks. Dayummm. Don’t you hate priorities? And realism? And rationality?
Well.
I’m growing into my new hairstyle a little bit, I guess that’s a good thing. Though I find that with this new hair it’s a fine, fine line between the two extremes. Either I dress nice and look all chic and rubbish, or I sport my can’t-be-bothered ~T-shirt and shorts~ and look like (I hate to say it, but) a maid. So now I have to put in a bit more effort.
Not sure if I should get another tattoo this holiday. A present for getting through secondary school; oh the joy!
Omg I’m really super bored right now which would normally be okay since I’m so used to it but not when I’m feeling this excited??? Omar my new B.F.F. is taking bloody long to reply my texts! Balls. Macham ikan paos siol. Saya cakap bahasa kelapa.
